I'm going a little crazy...

I wish I had a real person to talk to... Who do you talk to, when you have no one to talk to? Yourself? I need to paint or something to make myself less crazy.

okay...

That last post sounded bad.
I am happy, I know that no relationship will ever MAKE me happy. I am very happy with my life in general, things are going really well. I am unhappy in my relationship... that's it... But that's a lot.

.......

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I feel like screaming, or crying, or both. Months of counseling. I'm trying so hard. I'm doing everything I can to keep him happy. WHY! Why, can't I just be happy?